5 - growingnglowing - work out
Good morning!
I figured it’s time to update y’all on what’s going on in my life recently. I’ll start with all the bland, boring stuff and a bit of background so you can get to know me better.
For the last two years now almost every time I eat something it upsets my stomach and causes me a great deal of pain, but I have been figuring out how to live with it since no one’s been able to tell me what’s going on. This ordeal has involved dramatic breakdowns in the bathroom, crying in pain on the floor, a specialist, a colonoscopy, and a lot of missed meals - keep in mind my favourite thing to do is eat. The positive thing, is that I’ve gotten used to it. The negative thing, is that we are now adding onto that with these really weird chest cramps and not being able to breathe properly a lot of the time. Do I think they're related? No. I do however, wish that I didn’t have to do all this bull shit. Let me rewind and take you about two weeks back. For me, the shortness of breath wasn’t something that concerned me too much, I just thought I was out of shape compared to when I was a teenager or maybe I smoke too much weed. Anyhow, I’m in Niagara Falls with a friend for dinner and I’m getting this really intense chest cramp, every time I laugh it gets worse and every time I try to take a full breath it’s an intense sharp pain. It got to the point where in my head I’m thinking what if I cannot drive all the way home, what if I just pass out, I’ve got no clue what’s going on but it HURTS. This triggered me to call the doctor the next morning (Monday) and see what their advice was since now, I’ve realized this could be something related to not being able to catch my breath constantly. The doctor then says that I will go in for heart testing. Come Wednesday I am wearing a heart monitor. LOL. When I tell you I tried to get sympathy tips at work for that one I am NOT lying. The heart monitor was a shit time, wasn’t allowed to bathe properly, sleeping was uncomfortable, and I couldn't crack my back or the stickies would pull off, so that caused a lot of pain, and it was just a constant reminder of how shitty I’ve been feeling health wise for the last few years. I can happily say after four tests, the heart monitor is off and we are waiting to hear back from the doctor now.
On the flip side I’m really starting to value healthy lifestyle changes which is part of the reason I made this blog to begin with! One of the things I wanted to do was cut out pop completely, since it also irritates my stomach a lot anyhow I don’t need it. I did that for a while but recently have snagged a few glasses at work. Rather than going to the gym I have started up with taking walks almost every day and doing the stairs by my house! I think this is a decent step for me right now because its starting to push me to want to do more. The only thing I hate about the cardio is it really hurts my chest and it makes my hands go numb??? I think I’m going to get a yoga mat so I can start working out at home. I can keep walking and doing the stairs but can also do my tummy workouts at home. Those two things don’t seem like a bad mix, and eventually we will go from there. I realized that you have to push yourself outside of your box. These things aren’t normally things I would do, you know, eat healthy and try new foods, or stay consistent with my physical activity, but they’re things that I want for myself and also things that I genuinely feel will improve my quality of life! Within the last few weeks and months, I find that a lot more people have extremely positive compliments, and kind things to say to me and that makes me want these things for the people around me as well. I really do wish a lot more of my friends would try to break down their barriers and take the time to care for their bodies in a simple way like physical activity or eating more nutritiously. A lot of people I know have said that they feel exhausted or unenergized but I think what they might not realize is you have to retrain your body to have that energy. You have to nurture yourself back to that. It is hard to motivate yourself to do that, I can vouch for that, but it is so worth it. I am finally starting to feel like I can overtake my stresses, and my depression, and a little bit of my anxiety as well. I am so excited to see how this impacts my life and I really hope following along this will motivate other people to do the same.
Checking out on this one you guys.